My name is Mama Freethinker, and I’m an Atheist.
(“Hi Mama Freethinker“)
I also suffer from mental illness.
(Gasps and silent murmurs from the group)
Some would argue the two are related, and in a way they are. Both shape the way I see the world and interact within it. They bounce off one another from time to time.
I suffer from a lovely buffet of mental illnesses. I am managing through bipolar disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, acute anxiety, depression and some pretty wacky food issues at varying degrees over time. I tell you, it’s a blast!
And before you start with “OMG meeee tooo, I’m like so OCD sometimes because I can’t let my gravy touch my peas…” Stop. Just, stop. I’m not some self-diagnosed Tumblrite. I have actual, professionally diagnosed illnesses that a psychiatrist has written down on actual hospital letterhead. I take medication and seek help whenever things go sideways.
My Bipolar Disorder is at the forefront of my challenges. Mine is Type II if you want to get technical about it. A manic episode can last weeks to months, often resulting in a phenomenal wave of productivity and creativity. I create art at 2am, spend money I don’t have on things I don’t need (I once bought a pair of boots that are too small for my calves because they were *on sale* for $520, though in my defense they are pretty dope), make elaborate travel plans and want to be on top of every masculine body I stumble across….rarely acted upon but I don’t get any complaints when I do!
Depression and Anxiety? You all know what that is.
Food Issues? Most of us have them, some of us just go a little harder than others.
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is a complicated thing. The media shows sufferers from OCD as people who just like things extra clean and organized. My form of OCD is packaged nicely as unwelcome running thoughts that are rarely spoken out loud. I’ve never been tempted to act upon them, but I would seek immediate help if I ever did. Maybe I will get into the exact thoughts in the future.
Anyway, thank you for coming along with me on this little adventure.